Maybe nowadays I should just post one journal a week or something. Sheesh.

Anyway. Chris and me had our worst fight ever last night. But when the conversation first started, I exploded on him. Telling him how mad I am, how I'm tired of being led around by him. Lots of stuff. So after I said it all, he was quiet for a moment. Maybe too stunned that I actually talked/yelled at him like that. . . I'm a little surprised at myself, honestly. So then I told him I want us to talk. But as calm adults. I did my hardest to keep from crying. I only cried a little when I mentioned that the loss of my dog really screwed with my head. [It was really, honestly traumatic.]

Moving on. He and I were both feeling pretty ok when we got off the phone that time. He went downstairs to soak in a bath with a glass of wine. [That sounds so nice!] So I was calm, and didn't call him at all. I eventually fell asleep around two or so. Then woke up around 5 [I always do] and realized he hadn't called or texted me. So I just sent him a little text saying good night. I then rolled over and tried to go back to sleep. Not even a minute later, I got a response from him asking if I wanted to talk. I said ok. He called. And he said sorry for taking so long to call me back. He ended up watching a movie. Gangs of New York. I haven't seen it. According to him, it's a really long movie. It takes up two whole discs! That is a long movie. He said I'd probably like it, if I liked Boondock Saints. Which I saw for the first time last time I was over at his house. Heh! So yeah. . . I'm sorry for bringing up my personal life in here more than I used to. I just want someone to listen and talk to. I talk to Petey all the time. But since he's a dog, he can't exactly talk back. Only lick my tears away...

In other news, completely. My mom got us a new puppy. And he is really cute. He's almost all lab, with a quarter Dalmation in him. I think. That's what the owners told us. I saw the mother. She looked like a lab, but was all skinny like a Dalmation. So I dunno. He looks like a Rotty to me. He's also very cuddly and fuzzy and warm. My sister [~SweetLikeChocolate] and I wanted to name him Teddy Bear. Cause like I said, he's really cuddly! But my 18 year old brother said, "No! That's stupid! When he's all grown up, he won't look like a Teddy!" Jerk. So now his name is Rusty. He's also a bit of a fraidy cat. I took him outside to the front yard the day after we got him, and it is getting cold out. So I didn't think he'd wanna be out that long. I didn't either! But when a big dog across the street started barking, the little squirt tucked his tail between his legs and ran for his life to the front door. Whimpering the whole way. Poor baby! So I scooped him up, and realized he was trembling. So I just took him back in and held him in my lap til he calmed down. He wouldn't have left my lap anyway.

He's a shy little thing. But just so freakin' cute! He needs to learn not to yowl in his crate at night though. *Grumbles from lack of sleep*


One last note, I hope. I'm sorry for lack of posts in my gallery. Especially to those waiting for more BN. But I'm just not in the mood for it right now. Doesn't mean I'm going to abandon the project. No way in hell! I just want some time to work on something else for a little bit. Like, my Anubis story. I've been drawing stuff for that like crazy lately. 's paintings of Anubis have been inspiring a whole lot. Well, with character concepts at the very least. I need to finalize a plot before I even think about posting anything official... I have an idea. Just need to work out the kinks and such... *Sighs* Geeze. My hands are getting cold. I'm in the library again til my class starts. I don't know why they have the ac cranked up in the middle of November. ><!

So. Guess I'll wait here a bit longer, then make a quick call before class. Wish I didn't forget my syllabis again. So I'd know what we're doing in my drawing class tonight. Oh well.

I think I've rambled long enough now. I'll check on my scanner later, to see if it's actually working. Who knows.

~D